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what happened today?

First of all, I woke up late and we had to rush so that I won’t be late for my assessors and deliver the new set of attendance sheets. Oh, today was the dry run for the coming registration and not just any dry run but would be my last dry run for LSAT. I have to make sure everything runs fine before I sign out of service. So instead of putting a team building activity, I went for the discussion of the team’s constitution so that the rules will be clear to members. It was a very tiring day, considering the technical problems encountered, lots of speaking, lots of noise reduction and constant attending to the assessors who needed clarifications about their roles.

Then my blockmate and I went to check if our controversial and weird data logging system installed in MVP is running and as usual, it’s turned off. Which makes it really weird despite my blockmate’s efforts to prevent it from being off. At the end of the day, we stayed in our HQ to check for other data loggers and he was so tired, he took a nap. I, too, took a nap while in my mom’s office after my blockmate went home.

Although despite these, it was a very good day.

 

 

and I thank the Lord for that. 😀

Krispy Kreme Original Glazed

Today, will be the start of my second semester. Although there are still problems left by the first, it’s not enough to stop me from moving forward to second semester.

Yesterday, Dad brought home a box of dozen donuts, probably he got it from being kind while working on KK’s drainage system. It reminded me, though, of the times I join my dad from 10pm to 6am on his visits to jobs ordered by the company in which he works. It’s a great opportunity to see how places such as Manila and Quezon City look like when they are asleep.

Today was the dry run of second semester registration and it’s nice to see everyone again. Although my throat got scratched again with all the speaking and efforts to get everyone silent, it’s still nice to see them again. Not that this would be the last semester that I will serve my school in this way but serving the school this way is just plain good and simple. I got stressed a lot today, leaving me really sleepy, even left my SecGen sleepy at the end of the day. We even have to check our logging equipment for thesis at the end of the activities.

It was also nice to meet the new applicants personally. Seeing all their faces is nice and with the eagerness to learn everything about the process, I think this registration may go into a bump somewhere but we can conquer it.

Just as my boss, when I was an assessor before, would say:

Ganbattekudasai!

Oreo Cheesecake

Ok, the post title has nothing to do with the post itself. But anyway, what can I talk about this time? Before there are things that I realized, now there are things that I suddenly miss. Somehow it is connected to the things I realize because these things become the topic of the things I miss, which is actually what we call here “Simpleng kwentuhan” or bonding sessions. It may come with alcohol drinks or not, what’s important is the close conversations with friends or family. I’ve been missing that since last 2 years. It may be nice if there is an overnight. I remember Christmas last two years, I was able to bond with my barkada with overnight at one of my friend’s house, which kind of nice because we had a lot of overnights at that place which made a lot of memories.

But it seems that I’m not able to encounter this kind of activity for the past two years. I was hoping to encounter it during the break last week but being the oldest among the people around and the only one in the batch, no talking much happened. Hahahah~! Oh well, I was expecting that, especially one, younger batch doesn’t drink too much and is excited to bond the different way. Second, one batch higher could be drinkin’ but not much as well but also focused on bonding within themselves, which is good to get their batch closer and know each self better and last, the last batch sure needs to bond before their much awaited graduation. 😀 But I’m not putting the blame to people, I’m actually happy to see them bond that way but I still miss the old times. Anyway, out of last week, back to now. What I love about bonding sessions with close friends or simply people who are willing to listen to you is that you can open even the most intimate things in your life. They will comment “nice~!” or “yaaaaaaaaak~!” but in the end, they will tell you the most essential things that a peer can give or suggest, other than what your parents can say so that you will have a lot of guide. Discuss rumors, love life, new stuff, and more! It’s a very nice opportunity to really open up, release your frustrations, open yourself to suggestions and opportunities.

 

I miss that, I miss the conversations, I miss the people. These days, it’s quite hard to bond with people with few reasons, one of which is my age! (I guess). It’s hard to explain here but it’s just so apparent from my point of view. I’m not saying, though, that it’s hard to bond with them with alcohol. I’m saying that, with alcohol or none, it’s hard to bond with people younger than you. Or maybe I’m an introvert? :)) Oh well.  I do hope I could bond with my friends again. I super duper miss them. Actually, I should’ve visited my friend who’s taking medicine and lives in Padre Faura. Another close friend is still with me in college and, hopefully, we will graduate on time. She usually hangs out within Katipunan but so busy, it’s hard to disturb her, especially that she’s taking BAA in UP, which is kind of a serious course to take. I do meet her around sometimes but only for a short conversation, just checking how’s she doing in her acads.

*sigh*

 

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Some Realizations…

Ah, after a long time, I’m back on my blog and I have so much to write. 😀

This week is kind of heavy with the planning of an org and my thesis piling up on my list, it still gave me a bit of time to think, to work stuff out. <listens to Jazz music> At this point in my life, I realized how much opportunities I lost with other people, being with them, being the friend I should be and being the person I wanted to be with them. I was so restricted with my assumptions that when the time comes when this opportunity will be given to others, that’s the only time I’d wake up and end up losing the battle, game, challenge, whatever you call it. This happened before already and I can’t believe that it happened again. I thought I will be able to handle my feelings, emotions and way of thinking well after the first time this happened but I guess the assumptions I made had given way for this to happen again.

And now this opportunity seems to be lost, yet again. I am writing this because I am frustrated, not that I lost this challenge and that someone else got the chance, but because I cannot figure out why this happened again. Frustration, is flooding my mind right now and I keep on going back to what my mentors told me when frustration arises. They said, “…why not vent your frustration on trying to discover yourself more?” It was a lost opportunity again and I am sure that my friends will be mad at me that I let this one get away. I know it’s kind of stupid for me but there’s nothing else for me to do but to carry on. It’s like trying to choose again which path to take in this journey.

Somehow, there are some things that cheered me up. One was the good news from two of the most difficult majors I had for this sem as I got a grade higher than expected. I was shouting at the room where I’m staying when I saw these grades and good thing the people are out. 🙂 Second was the good evening I had with just chilling outside before I sleep. Then I had my PSP running GT which makes things better.

Laugh, say stupid and such, I know I made a mistake. I let an opportunity pass and trying to get things in favor of mine will be totally difficult and if ever I will be able to do it, a lot of conflicts will be created. So I guess I would not jump into this matter and stay away from it. Since I made a complete mess, I guess there’s no more U-turn slot for me to enter.

It’s great fun and good time, though, to know all these things. There are ups and downs in this life of mine and eventually I will be able to accept things as they are, pinpoint the mistakes and do all the best I can not to make it happen again. All I have to do is to know when to stop, when to step on the brakes and turn the wheel to change my direction. I cannot wait to see the people who will listen to me for hoooooooooourrss, it’s just good time with them talking about failure stuff. <hahahaha!> The usual questions will be raised and i will always say to them “I can always be someone else, it may be difficult to change but it’s possible. :D”.

It’s a good experience, this, and I wish for more events of realization to come. Then, I guess I can live up to the name that most of the people call me. Now I want to shout out because I got good grades! I really, really, really want to thank the Lord for that as it is not expected to happen. I was thinking more of a D or C for the two majors that Ma’am Cat handled. All I have to do is wait for ECE 162, OJT, DSP, COM127 and the lab. Yehey. 😀

Next on the list is my thesis and LSAT. All of which will be the last jobs I will do as a college student. I will miss these things as they have contributed significantly in my life. My thesis with the good people in it is simply the best. The laughter inside the headquarters, food treats and some discussions in life is just so memorable. LSAT, which I have served for 4 years will be memorable as well. The assessors, the bonding, the work is just awesome. 😀

oh, to those who will read this, be careful of what you think about after reading this. I made errors with assumptions, so too with yours if you interpret things the wrong way. 😀