Just a rant

yeah, just a rant.

I still can’t believe why people cannot tell me directly what they want to tell me. Why can’t they be frank, tell me that I suck, they hate me, I don’t belong to this particular place and so on?

I don’t know but because of these circumstances, I think I’ll have to resort to one thing.

sheesh.

Like for example, a simple reply on email, how come they can’t do that while they can email someone else? why not the closest person? People make me feel important, place me in an important position and then make me feel annoyingly useless after being in that position for a certain time. I mean, come on, tell me if I’m doing bullshit in my place so that I know what I will do.

For one, at some positions I did not intend to be in there, I just followed what people above would like to do together with the thinking “Maybe I can do this”. But sometimes, people are so discouraging.

Is this college?

Am I gonna experience this again in work?

What the hell is going on?

That’s what I hated way back in high school, people there at that time are “backstabbers”, gossip people. They can’t tell me directly what I am already doing that is, according to them, not-so-normal. I cannot understand why people are like that. Some say so that they won’t be able to hurt the person. Oh come on, not telling that person what he or she is doing bad and then telling it to someone else, aren’t you hurting that person more? You are giving a bad impression to that someone while leaving the “victim” unable to redeem his or herself.

and now I’m in college for nearly three years and I thought those kind of people are things of the past. But I don’t think so. to think this is a private school and yet people don’t act as sophisticated as the school. Take UP for instance, when you’re there, you don’t have that feeling that people would hate you for wearing house attire or islander slippers.

Anyway,

I thought I… well…found the good people around. Yet I’m beginning to retrieve my BAAAD mentality towards people around me because of the… no other way to say this, the people around me. I will be frank here, if you want, that I’m starting to lose some trust to some people AGAIN. and I’m starting to get irritated in college.

 

and please. anyone who will read this please, you know my way.

Choro-Q Light mod – Evo 7 paint jobs. :D

This is just a light modification so I won’t let it have a major page on my blog. Here’s how the car looked after the mod.

Yep, I modified the back with several paint jobs to make it look like it sports a small diffuser and spoiler as well as the tail lights look like evo 9’s.

Your own way

It’s really nice to have something where you can vent your anger, think about things, work stuff out…  For instance, I usually think things over or vent my anger on the hobby I like to do the most: Driving. Sadly I don’t have a car and fuel prices are shooting up so I have to resort to technology for that. I do have another hobby which is remote control modification but it’s such a big task to complete one modification that it leaves me no time for my studies. Which mean I can only do that hobby during vacations. Happily, I do play games but not that immersed because most of the games released nowadays are not my type. I only like simulations and the most recent simulation game I can play, related to my hobby of driving, was Gran Turismo for PSP. I do have a PSP and with a couple of software tweaks, I was able to get this game. This then lets me do my philosophical thinking over a lot of things, decisions and more. I don’t how it works for me but sometimes, answers just pop out of my mind while, for example, entering a corner with a certain fashion.

It’s like what drivers really do: Some of them go out at 4 in the morning, having the whole road network all to yourself.  It’s just you in your little metal shell. Though, in my case, everything’s digital but still.  This lets them get their freedom of mind, because everything’s clear, no distractions, no interruptions. Sometimes, I ask myself why do I pick that gaming device, start Gran Turismo and just do a run. I get up in the morning and start a small run. why? Well, I just love doing it. It makes me happy a bit. 

While driving, my mind, aside from anticipating the next corner, lets me relax a bit and tell myself to calm down a bit so that I can do my stuff properly. And also, sometimes, I do ask myself how to solve a problem the same way I encounter these corners on a chosen circuit or road.

Sometimes, I think what I’m doing is just making myself similar to an autistic person but I think people have their own ways of encountering problems in their life. People might have the same perspective as mine in the general sense but we are all unique in our way and for sure, we also have our own unique way of looking over things.

In the end, it is you who will go around the world. People will help you around, of course, but there will also be some people who will not cooperate with your progress.

After all of these efforts, in thinking, in considering decisions, in getting rid of the possible errors, in your life….

You get to see the fruit of your hardships, see the world yourself and enter in another expedition in your life. Zoom-Zoom~!

[PSP] Need for Speed Shift Review

Knowing that NFS “shifted” to realistic simulation of professional racing, this upcoming title should be impressive and worth waiting. aaand I think it is, though not for the PSP. This title is the greatest proof, so far, that NFS is starting to fail in the PSP platform [together with PSP itself].

Q-steer Photoshoot – Improvised White BG Studio. :D

I’ve been crazy about the silly light box but even though there are tutorials about its simple construction, I cannot put my money into it. I do have the camera and the light but not the peripherals to concentrate the light to the subject. However, I received a brighter lamp and tested this kind of photoshoot using scratch papers. The result is a semi-dark or a bit underexposed despite setting the camera to Aperture-priority and then setting the exposure to +1. The resulting photos were bluish since it’s dark time already and the only thing lighting up the subjects is the bright study lamp. Despite these instances, I brought up another paper facing the camera side to focus the light to the center. After shooting the pictures, I edited them using Adobe Photoshop, adjusting the color balance, brightness and contrast. Here are the results:

Looks nice, for me.

Gallery:

New Gran Turismo PSP Screenshots, New Gran Turismo PSP Package

More screenshots were released from PSP IGN of Gran Turismo PSP. And they also released the news about the release of the Gran Turismo Package for the US Release:
Here are the details:

-A Mystic Silver PSP-3000 unit

-Gran Turismo UMD

-Gran Turismo Car Voucher – An exclusive car download, White version of the Corvette ZR-1 for GTPSP

-PSN movie voucher

-2GB Memory Stick

-Sony Music Voucher for US residents.

When I saw the image of the package above, I was saddened because it didn’t have the good looks of the GT Package that will be released in Japan:

As you can see, it might be a plain Piano Black 3000 system, but the sides are grey, the PSP Ring at the back is also in grey finish and the L-R Buttons are smoked Grey as well. And at the front, the PSP sports a semi-opaque GT Logo. Just how cool and far better is that compared to the US release? But still, I hope they can still change the unit. Or else, I would really wait for the Japanese version.

here are some of the screenshots:

Back into Business

I’ve been out of the groove of Q-steer since hell weeks came. But I’m back. I’m starting to get the other cars I need such as the first Nissan Skyline R34 Bayside Blue. Well, an upcoming chassis is coming and it now bears the Choro-Q name. Cheers.

Plan for tomorrow is to make a temporary circuit using the largest illustration board that can be purchased from National Bookstore. Also, I’ll need to buy more boards and white cartolina so that I can test that silly home-made white box for photography.

Fiddle with Samurize~!

yup, I finally started fiddling with the famous system monitoring program, Samurize. This is actually my first work, inspired by aircrafts as well as Nissan GT-R’s LCD screen instruments. It is named Aircraft Instrument Panel (of course. :p).

If you’re into Samurize, you can try this design of mine by visiting my newly opened deviantart account.

Welcome to the Twenteens, Pau~!

UPDATE: AUGUST 22

I’ll just blog about the great things I encountered during the whole day of my birth as well as the following weekend.

FRIDAY

1. Before 00:00 Friday, a couple of people already greeted me online but the most memorable of them is Precious, who told me “13 minutes to go” after saying that her Dad is there with them as of that moment. Then I said, “How come he’s staying that very short time?!” and she replied “13 minutes na lang, birthday mo na, sira. ” Hahahaha~! Thanks Precious~!

2. That Lays incident is still in my mind, thinking my mom is still mad at me… Oh well. But at that very moment, I ignored that assumption as after midnight passed, mom went inside our room and hugged me and kissed me and said “Happy birthday, anak”.  :’( I think God gave me that as a cue to cut off that thinking about my mom.

3. Following my mom was my dad. But, the first time he went into the room, he went beside me and said…”Bat ka na naman kumakain sa kama mo? nasara mo na ba yung van? si kuya uuwi daw ba?”… Hahahah~! then he went out and after a few moments, he went back and did the same thing my mom did.

4. Kuya went in from work and said “Happy birthday!, eto yung gusto ko sa trabaho ko eh. Ako yung nakakagreet sayo una.” and I said “Mom and Dad just greeted me a while ago…” and then he said “ayy……”. Hehehehe. I love my family a lot.

5. More greetings while on the way. Then goody ‘ol Jigs texted as well. I told her “Wow, ang galeng mo naman, naalala mo. ” Then she replied “Syempre, nag-alarm pa ako niyan!” very proud of her alarm thingy. HAhahaha~! Then we talked more and teased her more about her absence on the planned movie watching on the 22. (and it continued on YM)

6. (One of the Best). I arrived at school with moments to spare before ELC Class. Makis and Arvin greeted me while I go to the classroom and  Makis said she bought me a can of Pringles as a gift. How thoughtful was that. Then, Arvin gave that gift to me and when I looked at it, it was open already. Bininyagan muna niya bago ibigay sayo-Arvin. Hahaha~! Thank You Very Much Makis~!

7. Nikki-gurl greeted me with a call before the day ends. Thank you too, Nikki~! Oh, she was looking for me because she wondered if the treat was going to push through. (or is it? I forgot already)

SATURDAY

1. I went to UA&P for my daily spiritual maintenance. :D:D

2. Kuya told me to go to GH for my dinner treat~! But first, I went to the closest known hobby shop in V-mall. I badly want the D1GP Evo 9 R/C Drift machine. Anyway~! Kuya showed me his new Alternity Transformers Nissan GT-R and Ate Chil’s Mater. Made me sad more. <:(   me want me drift machine….ANYWAY~!!!!! Drank 4 bottles of super dry. It’s been a while since I drank that much.. then drove to Wangan.. How bad was that? I lost one battle because I hit the tollgate. I was able to manage a 760HP/D. :D:D OH! And a nice set of Volk TE37’s for my Z34. Uber Big Thanks to my Kuya~!

AND THEN~!

@AUG21 – Batch outing. let me contribute to something… yummy.

@AUG 22-Movie watching with my beloved Barkada. Shall mark my age 20 as they are the last people I will meet for my birthday.

August 22 was the day when I watched with my barkada. Unfortunately, only Eya, Precious and Eunice came. Though I still feel complete with that day. I watched Disney’s UP with them. Then, to my surprise after going to the CR, the guys (they are girls, actually) gave me a present, a cake from SugarHouse with a not-an-edible car on the top. Still, they were the first to give me a cake as a present (as far as I can remember) so that day was very memorable. I love you guys and I wish we could see each other more.

Thank you to all the people who greeted me. Teacher Pia was the very first Atenean to greet me before my birthday! Erwin was the very first to greet me, overall. To my blockmates, especially Makis with her “opened” gift and Drex for giving a hug. To my barkada, especially Precious who waited until I turn 20. To my family, the very first people to give me hug. To my batchmates in high school, thank you very much. and for the rest who greeted me, THANK YOU VERY MUCH~!!!

schoolzz

Sucks.

There are people who… um. nevermind. could be worse. :D:D

Man, I still cannot see the rice crackers I bought from Rustans. Every time I buy one of those, that’s the last time I’ll see it from the grocery.