Well, definitely one of the depressing days of my life but what’s new? A couple of events probably added to that bulk but nevertheless, the day ended pretty much as a typical one, still with worries for the coming days. So the day started as usual but before I left the house, I had to dismantle the dusty speakers off my bed as well as the house’s printer and bring it to school. The speakers would be for my presentation, which I only finished before lunch today because I was supposed to do it during the midnight but my brother failed (or I failed) to wake up. The printer was for the resume printing because it is job fair week in our school but at the end of the day, I did not even bother to go there because of being busy. So when I woke up at my Mom’s office by 9 AM, got some resume copies printed and headed off to CTC 316 to work on my presentation. It was the typical morning with the professors being there, quiet as usual, and only a giant cup of chocolate drink to fill up my breakfast needs partially. Then before heading to class, I went to my friend to pay for the topographical map she’s about to buy within the day. Though I noticed and asked why she still looks depressed, she immediately said not to start “it”. I am not really good yet at interpreting people but whatever that means, I never proceeded at asking her further about it. I think at the positive side, I’ve done my part but still the fact that you are offering an ear but gets denied though I guess the best thing I can do is just be there just in case this “ear” is recognized. It’s hard to force someone to talk to you when they don’t want to. Not hard in the sense of literally talking but getting the gist or reason of the sad face and getting it by force. So at the end of the day, when another friend of mine asked me why I did not approach her after class that afternoon, I just simply said what she told me before and I’ll let it stay there. I mean, we’re close friends but I never really have the habit of forcing people say things. I will help in any way I can, with the information I can get and advice that I can give from there.
So the second phase of the day starts after eating lunch (alone, but yummy though). I was thinking of really going down to the Job Fair but with all the confusion regarding the board exam review and working, I finally decided to tackle the Job fair tomorrow. For the rest of the day, I took a nap until my professor asked me to do some work regarding the change in curriculum of our course. I proceeded normally, finishing the task quickly as possible, and drinking tons of water. The day ended with my professor assigning last set of tasks for the curriculum change and my presentation going well. Then I noticed this close friend of mine is talking casually again but I did not ask her about her depression that afternoon, might bring sad face to her again. So instead, gave her a hug and hope it helped. 
Arriving home, I reinstalled first the speakers back to their mounts as well as the printer, rearranged my bed and began working again. Oh yeah, nearly forgot, Mom was able to save up for a pizza night so before I switch to my “own” world, she encouraged me to eat pizza for dinner, which meant calling our beloved delivery service and call for what’s in my tummy right now.
…and we’re signing back in for work!
I also had small conversations with friends outside school via phone and I learned some things regarding what happened today. Really happy there are people ready to listen to you and I will always be open to them and I will cherish them in my whoooole life. Couple that with small events, including a hearty hug from parents at the end of the day, makes this day still depressing but less depressing than the start.
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