I do tend to think this way whenever I did something in the past, whether those things were wrong or not. Decisions play an important role in this subject of mine. Those changes that affected me the most are the ones that have been decided by myself and of course there are exceptions. Sometimes I end up happy, sometimes disappointed and sometimes give a reaction “oh..ok” or “I see”.
Those decisions that I end up happy are quite self-explanatory. It’s you who decided and it turned out to be good. But how about those decisions that left me a sitting duck or let be bit the dust?
If I’m honest?
I am super depressed whenever I realize that I should have decided the other way around. One of those moments are the very annoying and frustrating times when it’s too late to change your choice. Those times when you thought you can still make it, change everything or at least most of the things into your favor but the fact that it was already late, your efforts are wasted. Whether it’s about work, studies, friends, relationships, colleagues, it really kills you down. I’ve encountered a lot of times like these and most of them were really hitting the spot of depression. It crushes you down into pieces, pulverizing you to dust, leaving you wondering what to do next. What’s worse is when you’re trying to move on, everything that will remind you of the recent bad decision you made will always be around you, reminding you of your stupidity.
What makes you lead to these bad decisions? Sometimes, it’s the concern of not ruining things down, avoiding to hurt others and keeping things intact. It’s like a sacrifice of yours rather than pushing what you want because when you push through, you’ll end up in the wrong spotlight and people will think something against you. So then you end up as the bait so that everyone’s happy in what they see. Sometimes, it’s common sense stupidity, especially in simple matters like “I should have bought that…” or “I should not get this….”.
So it really takes a lot of guts to push to a decision that would let you have your way. Sometimes, people won’t even believe you when you defend this decision of yours so you’ll end up going after that will let things go.
My take? Whether it’s a good decision or a bad one and whether it led to a bad or good consequence, always think why things happened that way. Then, instead of sulking about deciding the other way around, why not think of ways not to let such event happen again? Those bad decisions and bad consequences will make you learn a lot about yourself and that’s where you make your changes. People around may not look at you the same way after such events but hey, you can always make a new impression. If it doesn’t change anything to them, there are more and more audience that, for sure, willing to see new good people, especially if they changed from something that seemed to be bad.
I’ve done a loooooooooooooot of decisions before which led to loss of people’s trust, misunderstandings and missed opportunities. But because I ought not to live in these decisions, people around me, especially close friends, are there to remind me of how I should approach such things and move on and be a better person from it. And with that, I rarely (or sometimes don’t) experience any form of depression or frustrations. Things will most likely never be the same again but it doesn’t mean that you cannot move on. There are a lot more things to focus on, more important problems to tackle and more opportunities out there to look after. 
Stories? I am willing to tell some of mine. Let’s talk about it sometime. Just tell me when. 
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