Just like other people who serve, I wish I could have people evaluate my work for my stay in this particular service. I would like to tell, though, that this is not to massage my ego as I am serious whether I made a good job or not.
To be honest, I’m not really sure about the work I did. When I started my first registration as the team captain, I technically screwed up with things. I just had to compensate with the work on the actual registration itself. Then I had to ask my dad and older brother how to manage a team as big as this, what input I need from them and what I should deliver back. Sometimes, I do consider the loss of members, meaning the resignations and no response when asked if they will still renew, as the team as well as my loss. The small fact that I was not able to retain them means that I am not making things more interesting than before. All I can do is just listen to what the Registrar told me to just recruit when people go. Yes, people come and go with the changes in time and I know that but for some to leave at an early or later point meant that I missed something, some sort of action that I should have done. Although recruiting is fun because it makes you interact with new people around but the question lies within those interviews on whether you can actually know how this particular applicant really thinks.
And then there’s the question of the people itself. Maybe I’ve established myself quite wrong in this team. I thought at the very first that maybe changing the usual team captain attitude may bring the team’s loss of members to a slower rate or to a magnificent halt. Well, at some point, it did but it also gave way to some people who can be abusive of this kindness. A proof was one registration where my patience was tested. After that, I began to think again if it is actually correct to be soft because the team captain when I entered this service was excellently strict but I found dull and lifeless assessors who only looked into this service as a simple task or job. I never really smiled or talked to students lively when he was the one on the top. Now, I saw a difference. Showing the assessors now that you appreciate their efforts and showing this appreciation to them directly make them work better and better. One venue would actually interrupt your conversation with ANY of the assessors once the assessor call has been raised. It’s the lively and happy accommodation of these assessors that made the job the best that it can be and I never saw this before during my time. Although to give way for this, I had to show them that their boss is also a lively one. Someone who they can surprise a water gun attack and would even laugh with them. But of course, like what I’ve mentioned, it can lead to some deviousness.
But then I’m afraid that if I ask people, some would reply sarcastically. If I ask closer friends of mine, all that they will say is not really that accurate because they never see me work. With all of these, some will say I might be looking down on myself too much. That’s why I would like an honest opinion if I did well, from being the temporary assistant head, actual assistant head, then team head and finally team captain for two straight years. Why am I asking opinions? Isn’t this job done already? Yes I know, but I just really want to know how I performed. Some people would mention most of the time your good points. I also want to know the bad points I had so that in the future, in my work and in other aspects, I would be able to know what to avoid.
Every registration, I would always tell myself, problems are not meant to be prevented. It will always and always appear in many forms. Our task is to solve them, one at a time. Just like what was mentioned in one of the animes I watched about racing, tuners are there to tune the engine, improve and encounter problems and fix it and when you fix one problem, another will come out.
Oh I would really love to hear comments, I don’t really care if it’s for or against me, as long as I will learn from them.
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